Chemo; A love hate relationship

Chemo chemo and more chemo…

Nathan is on another MAP some the same just a bit tweeked and more added in…Nathans cancer cells are not responding the way the Drs would like and they cannot do high dose chemo like he needs for fear his organs will react and transplant will eithet be seriously delayed or not happen. Nathans organs took a serious hit with his last battle with osteosarcoma, creating a very difficult decision at that time and having to stop treatment to kill the cancer to save his organs from shut down and failure. It’s been 4 1/2 yrs since that and although Nathans organ have recovered and are functioning they are damaged and that remains a problem and serious concern. Blood counts remain low in the neutrapenic levels already with transfusions of necessity on board to maintain, his white cells continue to drop but cannot at this time be rebooted due to feeding the cancer cells and encouraging growth and strengthening and we do not want that to happen, we are in that time of the mask again and carefully monitoring visitors. 

The bone marrow biopsies continue to show rare and aggresive flags that are and will make this battle more difficult for Nathan. We have had several donors pop up out of the country none yet being able to use for Nathan and awaiting one the last(on the list) donor match results now; this donor has already sparked a special place of hope for us though, as he just popped up suddenly; as we where hearing about the results from the last this new donor just showed up,  meaning he’s a new registrant on the donor list and matched up with Nathan: as the Drs where saying this just don’t happen, and has never happened to them prior. I believe in fate and my faith is strong and we need a perfect match from a donor to continue to transplant with the least amount of risk and relapse for Nathan as he already has too many odds stacked against him…although I have a good feeling about it I’m not getting my hopes up to be let down again I will continue to pray.

 Nathan is hanging in there and doing his best to be himself, after a red bag transfusion last week and a beautiful weekend we where able to get him out and about to enjoy some of that sunshine and fresh air. Nathans happy time is gaming online with a great friend he met in his new school the 2 of them crack me up listening to them as the FaceTime anf play online the house is full of laughter from both boys, I absolutely love listening to it. 

Nathan has a special day coming up in which we are totally grateful for…his 16th birthday is on Monday; not exactly what we had in mind for him with way of celebration but we have him with us and for that we are eternally grateful; Nathan has spent a many of birthdays(6yrs) in this situation fighting cancer and getting chemo and although he hates it all he totally knows it’s what needs to be done,  his Drs are trying to work it out that even though he has to have his chemo that day it can still be a special day for him too, but we know very well that we wont know that till the day comes as his counts are very low and welp they trump our situation so it makes it VERY DIFFICULT to make celebration plans as we hoped for.

We want to thank everyone who keeps Nathan and our family in thought and prayer as I’ve known from prior experiences and feel it again there are honestly days we ride solely on those prayers…

Thank you and God Bless!

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